Sunday, June 24, 2012
At The End There Is Always A Crucifixion
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Friday, April 27, 2012
I Would Argue That This Is The First Poem I Ever Wrote
we
slept there
on
the Belgium grass
zipped
up inside your green tent
with
secrets
like
the one where I kissed your lips
when
mine should have stayed dry
my
heart felt like it threw up in my lungs
every
time you left the tent
as
I laid there naked
drenched
in sweat
the sun blazed through the nylon
and you would return
with
a baguette or two
depending
on how you sweet talked the French boy
and
we would just lie there unzipped in your sleeping bag
tangled
like the small black spiders that
dangled
from the corners
you told me you would eat them
words
that tricked me into your arms
but
every night we left that tent
to
disappear into larger ones
I lost him every night
till
we would climb back into the bag
with
our secrets
and
all I wanted was to
share
with the world what we shared inside the tent
but
the last day arrived
you
left without a kiss without a goodbye
just
the tent on your back
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Fortune Cookie Says: Everything Serves to Further
Somewhere in San Fernando Valley
there is a grass encased pool
surrounded by carmine red hibiscus
serving to further and serving as nothing.
Somewhere in San Fernando Valley
there are seven-lane-wide freeways
surrounded by metered parking lots
serving to further and serving as nothing.
Friday, March 30, 2012
My Soul Belongs To Some Demon
I watched her holding a drink
and an unlit cigarette
when she reached into a man's pocket
and withdrew a match
to strike it off the rough bark
of some unnameable house plant,
lifting the fire to her eyes
it took me two steps, maybe three,
to clutch her with a sensational violence, twisting
her arm behind her back as the still burning match
flicked across the room, landing on the host's persian rug.
I dragged her out through the kitchen
and into the yard, no one moved from their positions,
Francis Lai's Concerto for a Love's Ending
didn't skip a beat, it slowed everything down
except for the heat
and with a blow of passion
I pressed four knuckles
into her belly, and
dragged her into the Buick
leaving behind a black shoe
to be found the next morning
stuck by its heel in the snow.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Some More Thoughts on Death
For the Sake of Navigation
I will die in between two days, on a
transatlantic flight,
after the stewardess has given me my
drink.
I will be at peace with liminal space,
false legroom.
I will be nation-less, ground-less,
63,000 feet up in the air.
My soul will thank me for doing
almost three-fourths of the job, the
airline & co. will not.
Perhaps the plane will land in Paris,
but the chances are slim, instead I’ll be
carrying bad news to a lover.
I will be one of the true, few mile-high
club members,
receive a two-fer, a free plane ride
back!
But if anything I just wanted to play
with time,
make it wait for me zone by zone.
I will die in between two days, on a
transatlantic flight,
inside the belly of an aeronautical
Leviathan.
Friday, March 16, 2012
The Measurement of Space
Solange’s
Trance, What is Nearest to Us and What is
Remote From Us
As I
floated
I
felt no longer steered
but
taken as some target
hung
naked from an outer sphere—
I
cared nothing for
my
rotting hair or swollen flesh
as
sea-mist splashed my sponge-like skin
pushing
me further where I pleased
into
perpetual spins and tide-heaves
I
absorbed the nearness of turbid waters
and
the remoteness of forgotten lands.
Yet
the storm woke me with ecstatic contact
and
like a floating particle in the moon’s spotlight
eternalizing
the cosmic ebb and flow
as
nights passed while stars shone;
I
bathed in the Play of the
Deranged,
tempest-infused churned into black
devouring
red glows, entranced in static wreckage
of
body forms bent bow backs
a
dreaming where drowned men
sometimes
goes down,
I
found myself
standing
on the stage of
The
Two Masks
and
as I watched my skin glisten white
refracted
through rows of
bobbing
balls of eyes
I
lifted the string of pearls
above
my black curled hair
and
felt the pull of
unfathomably
mysteries haunting
my
soul, fragile organisms reflecting
my
inherited defects, the many
monsters
of my future’s expectation,
there
is always silence before the claps,
like
crashing waves, sinking in
the sand of humanly relief.
the sand of humanly relief.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Ive Seem To Have Gone Blind
What is that?
Well it is one of the covers of my first poetry collection.
This is my thanks, to those strangers who purchased it.
Lingering in my thoughts is gratitude,
The fact is that there are a majority of my peers who are always
frustrated with my work, and nit-pick at my word choice.
Yet perfect strangers exist out there
who acknowledge
what I have created.
So this is my thanks!
My second collection will soon be back on those shelves.
This will be updated.
Oh and a really big thank you to Katherine Martinez, the shopkeeper of http://sbbookshop.wordpress.com/ located in Palm Springs.
For the first bookstore to lend me a shelf.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
What The Gravedigger Really Needs, Digging For The Villanelle
Infodio
Infodi Infossum
Overall,
the work pays well,
caked
with mud, he shuffles in his rubber boots,
you
get use to the crowds that cry like hell.
The
gravedigger loosens his leather gloves to tell
me
what he needs at the end of the day; the relief of booze,
regardless
of the backaches, the job pays well.
I
watched him once pat the dirt firm around the headstone of Estelle,
his
overalls stiffened as his whole frame suffused
with
a cold dew, he stood alone and wiped a tear before it fell.
Inside
Kavanaghs, his rosy cheeks are an illusion of morale,
for I’ve
heard him say, ‘what kind of man lives with a spear and a spade, to never recuse
himself
the worth of such work? What kind of man listens for the pay of the wailing
knell?’
In
town I see him riding his bicycle with a large empty basket, a smell
lingers;
a whiff of dirt and sweat is slow to diffuse.
Crowds not use to seeing him around, whisper ‘another death, another space for someone to dwell
six
feet underground. Another lost chance to say farewells.’
But
when death does knock, he can’t refuse
the
work that pays well,
digging
quickly before the crowd arrives and cries like hell.
Monday, March 5, 2012
The Dinner Table of Yaad Na Jaye
At
the Lahore Karhai, by Imtiaz Dharker
It’s
a great day, Sunday,
when
we pile into the car
and
set off with a purpose—
a
pilgrimage across the city,
to
Wembley, the Lahore Karhai.
Lunch
service has begun—
‘No
beer, we’re Muslim’—
but
the morning sun
squeezed
into juice,
and
‘Yaad na jaye’
on
the two-in-one.
On
the Grand Trunk Road
thundering
across Punjab to Amritsar,
this
would be a dhaba
where
the truck drivers pull in,
swearing
and sweating
full
of lust for real food,
just
like home.
Hauling
our overloaded lives
the
extra mile,
we’re
truckers of another kind,
looking
hopefully (years away
from
Sialkot and Chandigarh)
for
the taste of our mothers’ hand cooking.
So
we’ve arrived at this table:
the
Lahore runaway;
the
Sindhi refugee
with
his beautiful wife
who
prays each day to Krishna,
keeper
of her kitchen and her life;
the
Englishman too young
to
be flavoured by the Raj;
the
girls with silky hair,
wearing
the confident air
of
Bombay.
This
winter we have learnt
to
wear out past
like
summer clothes.
Yes,
a great day.
A
feast! We swoop
on
a whole family of dishes.
The
tarka dal is Auntie Hameeda
the
karhai ghosts is Khala Ameena
the
gajjar halva is Appa Rasheeda.
The
warm naan is you.
My
hand stops half-way to my mouth.
The
Sunday has locked on all of us:
The
owner’s smiling son,
the
cook at the hot kebabs,
Kartar,
Rohini, Robert,
Ayesha,
Sangam, I,
bound
together by the bread we break,
sharing
out our continent.
These
are
the ways of remembering.
Other
days, we may prefer
Chinese.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Association with Taste
The Stinking Rose, by Sujata Bhatt
Everything I want to say is
in that name
for these cloves of garlic- they shine
like pearls still warm from a woman's neck.
My fingernails nudges and nicks
the smell open, a round smell
that spirals up. Are you hungry?
Does it burn through your ears?
Did you know some cloves were planted
near the coral-coloured roses
to provoke the petals
into giving stronger perfume...
Everything is in that name
for garlic:
Roses and smells
and the art of naming...
What's in a name? That which we call a rose,
by any other name would smell as sweet...
But that which we call garlic
smells sweeter, more
vulnerable, even delicate
if we call it The Stinking Rose.
The roses on the table, the garlic in the salad
and the salt teases our ritual
tasting to last longer.
You who dined with us tonight,
this garlic will sing to your heart
to your slipper muscles- will keep
your nipples and your legs from sleeping.
Fragrant blood full of garlic-
yes, they noted it reeked under the microscope.
His fingers tired after peeling and crushing
the stinking rose, the sticky cloves-
Still, in the middle of the night his fingernail
nudges and nicks her very own smell
her prism open.
Know any great poems about food? Send them my way!
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
Wislawa Szymborska, 1923-2012
Identification
It’s good you came—she says.
You heard a plane crashed on Thursday?
Well so they came to see me
about it.
The story is he was on the passenger list.
So what, he might have changed his mind.
They gave me some pills so I wouldn’t fall apart.
Then they showed me I don’t know who.
All black, burned except one hand.
A scrap of shirt, a watch, a wedding ring.
I got furious, that can’t be him.
He wouldn’t do that to me, look like that.
The stores are bursting with those shirts.
The watch is just a regular old watch.
And our names on that ring,
they’re only the most ordinary names.
It’s good you came. Sit here beside me.
He really was supposed to get back Thursday.
But we’ve got so many Thursdays left this year.
I’ll put the kettle on for tea.
I’ll wash my hair, then what,
try to wake up from all this.
It’s good you came, since it was cold there,
and him just in some rubber sleeping bag,
him, I mean, you know, that unlucky man.
I’ll put the Thursday on, wash the tea,
since our names are completely ordinary—
Thursday, February 2, 2012
It Has A Shadow
by Amitav Ghosh
"But he knew that the clarity of that image i his mind was merely the seductive clarity of ignorance; an illusion of knowledge created by a deceptive weight of remembered detail"
"I could think of no answer, except that it is because that state, love, is so utterly alien to that other idea without which we cannot live as human beings- the idea of justice. It is only because love is so profoundly the enemy of justice that our minds, shrinking in horror from its true nature, try to tame it by uniting it with its opposite...if we apply all the metaphors of normality, we shall, in the end, be able to approximate that state of metaphorically."
"We did not know whether we were going home or not. The streets had turned themselves inside out: our city had turned against us."
Monday, January 16, 2012
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Another New Year, Fucking Read Something.
The Ballad of Reading Gaol, Oscar Wilde
I. He did not wear his scarlet coat, For blood and wine are red, And blood and wine were on his hands When they found him with the dead, The poor dead woman whom he loved, And murdered in her bed. He walked amongst the Trial Men In a suit of shabby grey; A cricket cap was on his head, And his step seemed light and gay; But I never saw a man who looked So wistfully at the day. I never saw a man who looked With such a wistful eye Upon that little tent of blue Which prisoners call the sky, And at every drifting cloud that went With sails of silver by. I walked, with other souls in pain, Within another ring, And was wondering if the man had done A great or little thing, When a voice behind me whispered low, "That fellow's got to swing." Dear Christ! the very prison walls Suddenly seemed to reel, And the sky above my head became Like a casque of scorching steel; And, though I was a soul in pain, My pain I could not feel. I only knew what hunted thought Quickened his step, and why He looked upon the garish day With such a wistful eye; The man had killed the thing he loved And so he had to die.
Yet each man kills the thing he loves By each let this be heard, Some do it with a bitter look, Some with a flattering word, The coward does it with a kiss, The brave man with a sword! Some kill their love when they are young, And some when they are old; Some strangle with the hands of Lust, Some with the hands of Gold: The kindest use a knife, because The dead so soon grow cold. Some love too little, some too long, Some sell, and others buy; Some do the deed with many tears, And some without a sigh: For each man kills the thing he loves, Yet each man does not die. He does not die a death of shame On a day of dark disgrace, Nor have a noose about his neck, Nor a cloth upon his face, Nor drop feet foremost through the floor Into an empty place He does not sit with silent men Who watch him night and day; Who watch him when he tries to weep, And when he tries to pray; Who watch him lest himself should rob The prison of its prey. He does not wake at dawn to see Dread figures throng his room, The shivering Chaplain robed in white, The Sheriff stern with gloom, And the Governor all in shiny black, With the yellow face of Doom. He does not rise in piteous haste To put on convict-clothes, While some coarse-mouthedDoctor gloats, and notes Each new and nerve-twitched pose, Fingering a watch whose little ticks Are like horrible hammer-blows. He does not know that sickening thirst That sands one's throat, before The hangman with his gardener's gloves Slips through the padded door, And binds one with three leathern thongs, That the throat may thirst no more.He does not bend his head to hear The Burial Office read, Nor, while the terror of his soul Tells him he is not dead, Cross his own coffin, as he moves Into the hideous shed. He does not stare upon the air Through a little roof of glass; He does not pray with lips of clay For his agony to pass; Nor feel upon his shuddering cheek The kiss of Caiaphas. II. Six weeks our guardsman walked the yard, In a suit of shabby grey: His cricket cap was on his head, And his step seemed light and gay, But I never saw a man who looked So wistfully at the day. I never saw a man who looked With such a wistful eye Upon that little tent of blue Which prisoners call the sky, And at every wandering cloud that trailed Its raveled fleeces by. He did not wring his hands, as do Those witless men who dare To try to rear the changeling Hope In the cave of black Despair: He only looked upon the sun, And drank the morning air. He did not wring his hands nor weep, Nor did he peek or pine, But he drank the air as though it held Some healthful anodyne; With open mouth he drank the sun As though it had been wine! And I and all the souls in pain, Who tramped the other ring, Forgot if we ourselves had done A great or little thing, And watched with gaze of dull amaze The man who had to swing.And strange it was to see him pass With a step so light and gay, And strange it was to see him look So wistfully at the day, And strange it was to think that he Had such a debt to pay. For oak and elm have pleasant leaves That in the spring-time shoot: But grim to see is the gallows-tree, With its adder-bitten root, And, green or dry, a man must die Before it bears its fruit! The loftiest place is that seat of grace For which all worldlings try: But who would stand in hempen band Upon a scaffold high, And through a murderer's collar take His last look at the sky? It is sweet to dance to violins When Love and Life are fair: To dance to flutes, to dance to lutes Is delicate and rare: But it is not sweet with nimble feet To dance upon the air! So with curious eyes and sick surmise We watched him day by day, And wondered if each one of us Would end the self-same way, For none can tell to what red Hell His sightless soul may stray. At last the dead man walked no more Amongst the Trial Men, And I knew that he was standing up In the black dock's dreadful pen, And that never would I see his face In God's sweet world again. Like two doomed ships that pass in storm We had crossed each other's way: But we made no sign, we said no word, We had no word to say; For we did not meet in the holy night, But in the shameful day. A prison wall was round us both, Two outcast men were we: The world had thrust us from its heart, And God from out His care: And the iron gin that waits for Sin Had caught us in its snare.In Debtors' Yard the stones are hard, And the dripping wall is high, So it was there he took the air Beneath the leaden sky, And by each side a Warder walked, For fear the man might die. Or else he sat with those who watched His anguish night and day; Who watched him when he rose to weep, And when he crouched to pray; Who watched him lest himself should rob Their scaffold of its prey. The Governor was strong upon The Regulations Act: The Doctor said that Death was but A scientific fact: And twice a day the Chaplain called And left a little tract. And twice a day he smoked his pipe, And drank his quart of beer: His soul was resolute, and held No hiding-place for fear; He often said that he was glad The hangman's hands were near. But why he said so strange a thing No Warder dared to ask: For he to whom a watcher's doom Is given as his task, Must set a lock upon his lips, And make his face a mask. Or else he might be moved, and try To comfort or console: And what should Human Pity do Pent up in Murderers' Hole? What word of grace in such a place Could help a brother's soul? With slouch and swing around the ring We trod the Fool's Parade! We did not care: we knew we were The Devil's Own Brigade: And shaven head and feet of lead Make a merry masquerade. We tore the tarry rope to shreds With blunt and bleeding nails; We rubbed the doors, and scrubbed the floors, And cleaned the shining rails: And, rank by rank, we soaped the plank, And clattered with the pails.We sewed the sacks, we broke the stones, We turned the dusty drill: We banged the tins, and bawled the hymns, And sweated on the mill: But in the heart of every man Terror was lying still. So still it lay that every day Crawled like a weed-clogged wave: And we forgot the bitter lot That waits for fool and knave, Till once, as we tramped in from work, We passed an open grave. With yawning mouth the yellow hole Gaped for a living thing; The very mud cried out for blood To the thirsty asphalte ring: And we knew that ere one dawn grew fair Some prisoner had to swing. Right in we went, with soul intent On Death and Dread and Doom: The hangman, with his little bag, Went shuffling through the gloom And each man trembled as he crept Into his numbered tomb. That night the empty corridors Were full of forms of Fear, And up and down the iron town Stole feet we could not hear, And through the bars that hide the stars White faces seemed to peer. He lay as one who lies and dreams In a pleasant meadow-land, The watcher watched him as he slept, And could not understand How one could sleep so sweet a sleep With a hangman close at hand? But there is no sleep when men must weep Who never yet have wept: So we--the fool, the fraud, the knave-- That endless vigil kept, And through each brain on hands of pain Another's terror crept. Alas! it is a fearful thing To feel another's guilt! For, right within, the sword of Sin Pierced to its poisoned hilt, And as molten lead were the tears we shed For the blood we had not spilt.The Warders with their shoes of felt Crept by each padlocked door, And peeped and saw, with eyes of awe, Grey figures on the floor, And wondered why men knelt to pray Who never prayed before. All through the night we knelt and prayed, Mad mourners of a corpse! The troubled plumes of midnight were The plumes upon a hearse: And bitter wine upon a sponge Was the savior of Remorse. The cock crew, the red cock crew, But never came the day: And crooked shape of Terror crouched, In the corners where we lay: And each evil sprite that walks by night Before us seemed to play. They glided past, they glided fast, Like travelers through a mist: They mocked the moon in a rigadoon Of delicate turn and twist, And with formal pace and loathsome grace The phantoms kept their tryst. With mop and mow, we saw them go, Slim shadows hand in hand: About, about, in ghostly rout They trod a saraband: And the damned grotesques made arabesques, Like the wind upon the sand! With the pirouettes of marionettes, They tripped on pointed tread: But with flutes of Fear they filled the ear, As their grisly masque they led, And loud they sang, and loud they sang, For they sang to wake the dead. "Oho!" they cried, "The world is wide, But fettered limbs go lame! And once, or twice, to throw the dice Is a gentlemanly game, But he does not win who plays with Sin In the secret House of Shame." No things of air these antics were That frolicked with such glee: To men whose lives were held in gyves, And whose feet might not go free, Ah! wounds of Christ! they were living things, Most terrible to see. Around, around, they waltzed and wound; Some wheeled in smirking pairs: With the mincing step of demirep Some sidled up the stairs: And with subtle sneer, and fawning leer, Each helped us at our prayers.The morning wind began to moan, But still the night went on: Through its giant loom the web of gloom Crept till each thread was spun: And, as we prayed, we grew afraid Of the Justice of the Sun. The moaning wind went wandering round The weeping prison-wall: Till like a wheel of turning-steel We felt the minutes crawl: O moaning wind! what had we done To have such a seneschal? At last I saw the shadowed bars Like a lattice wrought in lead, Move right across the whitewashed wall That faced my three-plank bed, And I knew that somewhere in the world God's dreadful dawn was red. At six o'clock we cleaned our cells, At seven all was still, But the sough and swing of a mighty wing The prison seemed to fill, For the Lord of Death with icy breath Had entered in to kill. He did not pass in purple pomp, Nor ride a moon-white steed. Three yards of cord and a sliding board Are all the gallows' need: So with rope of shame the Herald came To do the secret deed. We were as men who through a fen Of filthy darkness grope: We did not dare to breathe a prayer, Or give our anguish scope: Something was dead in each of us, And what was dead was Hope. For Man's grim Justice goes its way, And will not swerve aside: It slays the weak, it slays the strong, It has a deadly stride: With iron heel it slays the strong, The monstrous parricide! We waited for the stroke of eight: Each tongue was thick with thirst: For the stroke of eight is the stroke of Fate That makes a man accursed, And Fate will use a running noose For the best man and the worst.We had no other thing to do, Save to wait for the sign to come: So, like things of stone in a valley lone, Quiet we sat and dumb: But each man's heart beat thick and quick Like a madman on a drum! With sudden shock the prison-clock Smote on the shivering air, And from all the gaol rose up a wail Of impotent despair, Like the sound that frightened marshes hear From a leper in his lair. And as one sees most fearful things In the crystal of a dream, We saw the greasy hempen rope Hooked to the blackened beam, And heard the prayer the hangman's snare Strangled into a scream. And all the woe that moved him so That he gave that bitter cry, And the wild regrets, and the bloody sweats, None knew so well as I: For he who live more lives than one More deaths than one must die. IV. There is no chapel on the day On which they hang a man: The Chaplain's heart is far too sick, Or his face is far to wan, Or there is that written in his eyes Which none should look upon. So they kept us close till nigh on noon, And then they rang the bell, And the Warders with their jingling keys Opened each listening cell, And down the iron stair we tramped, Each from his separate Hell. Out into God's sweet air we went, But not in wonted way, For this man's face was white with fear, And that man's face was grey, And I never saw sad men who looked So wistfully at the day.I never saw sad men who looked With such a wistful eye Upon that little tent of blue We prisoners called the sky, And at every careless cloud that passed In happy freedom by. But there were those amongst us all Who walked with downcast head, And knew that, had each got his due, They should have died instead: He had but killed a thing that lived Whilst they had killed the dead. For he who sins a second time Wakes a dead soul to pain, And draws it from its spotted shroud, And makes it bleed again, And makes it bleed great gouts of blood And makes it bleed in vain! Like ape or clown, in monstrous garb With crooked arrows starred, Silently we went round and round The slippery asphalte yard; Silently we went round and round, And no man spoke a word. Silently we went round and round, And through each hollow mind The memory of dreadful things Rushed like a dreadful wind, An Horror stalked before each man, And terror crept behind. The Warders strutted up and down, And kept their herd of brutes, Their uniforms were spick and span, And they wore their Sunday suits, But we knew the work they had been at By the quicklime on their boots. For where a grave had opened wide, There was no grave at all: Only a stretch of mud and sand By the hideous prison-wall, And a little heap of burning lime, That the man should have his pall. For he has a pall, this wretched man, Such as few men can claim: Deep down below a prison-yard, Naked for greater shame, He lies, with fetters on each foot, Wrapt in a sheet of flame!And all the while the burning lime Eats flesh and bone away, It eats the brittle bone by night, And the soft flesh by the day, It eats the flesh and bones by turns, But it eats the heart alway. For three long years they will not sow Or root or seedling there: For three long years the unblessed spot Will sterile be and bare, And look upon the wondering sky With unreproachful stare. They think a murderer's heart would taint Each simple seed they sow. It is not true! God's kindly earth Is kindlier than men know, And the red rose would but blow more red, The white rose whiter blow. Out of his mouth a red, red rose! Out of his heart a white! For who can say by what strange way, Christ brings his will to light, Since the barren staff the pilgrim bore Bloomed in the great Pope's sight? But neither milk-white rose nor red May bloom in prison air; The shard, the pebble, and the flint, Are what they give us there: For flowers have been known to heal A common man's despair. So never will wine-red rose or white, Petal by petal, fall On that stretch of mud and sand that lies By the hideous prison-wall, To tell the men who tramp the yard That God's Son died for all. Yet though the hideous prison-wall Still hems him round and round, And a spirit may not walk by night That is with fetters bound, And a spirit may but weep that lies In such unholy ground, He is at peace--this wretched man-- At peace, or will be soon: There is no thing to make him mad, Nor does Terror walk at noon, For the lampless Earth in which he lies Has neither Sun nor Moon.They hanged him as a beast is hanged: They did not even toll A requiem that might have brought Rest to his startled soul, But hurriedly they took him out, And hid him in a hole. They stripped him of his canvas clothes, And gave him to the flies; They mocked the swollen purple throat And the stark and staring eyes: And with laughter loud they heaped the shroud In which their convict lies. The Chaplain would not kneel to pray By his dishonored grave: Nor mark it with that blessed Cross That Christ for sinners gave, Because the man was one of those Whom Christ came down to save. Yet all is well; he has but passed To Life's appointed bourne: And alien tears will fill for him Pity's long-broken urn, For his mourner will be outcast men, And outcasts always mourn. V. I know not whether Laws be right, Or whether Laws be wrong; All that we know who lie in gaol Is that the wall is strong; And that each day is like a year, A year whose days are long. But this I know, that every Law That men have made for Man, Since first Man took his brother's life, And the sad world began, But straws the wheat and saves the chaff With a most evil fan. This too I know--and wise it were If each could know the same-- That every prison that men build Is built with bricks of shame, And bound with bars lest Christ should see How men their brothers maim.With bars they blur the gracious moon, And blind the goodly sun: And they do well to hide their Hell, For in it things are done That Son of God nor son of Man Ever should look upon! The vilest deeds like poison weeds Bloom well in prison-air: It is only what is good in Man That wastes and withers there: Pale Anguish keeps the heavy gate, And the Warder is Despair For they starve the little frightened child Till it weeps both night and day: And they scourge the weak, and flog the fool, And gibe the old and grey, And some grow mad, and all grow bad, And none a word may say. Each narrow cell in which we dwell Is a foul and dark latrine, And the fetid breath of living Death Chokes up each grated screen, And all, but Lust, is turned to dust In Humanity's machine. The brackish water that we drink Creeps with a loathsome slime, And the bitter bread they weigh in scales Is full of chalk and lime, And Sleep will not lie down, but walks Wild-eyed and cries to Time. But though lean Hunger and green Thirst Like asp with adder fight, We have little care of prison fare, For what chills and kills outright Is that every stone one lifts by day Becomes one's heart by night. With midnight always in one's heart, And twilight in one's cell, We turn the crank, or tear the rope, Each in his separate Hell, And the silence is more awful far Than the sound of a brazen bell. And never a human voice comes near To speak a gentle word: And the eye that watches through the door Is pitiless and hard: And by all forgot, we rot and rot, With soul and body marred.And thus we rust Life's iron chain Degraded and alone: And some men curse, and some men weep, And some men make no moan: But God's eternal Laws are kind And break the heart of stone. And every human heart that breaks, In prison-cell or yard, Is as that broken box that gave Its treasure to the Lord, And filled the unclean leper's house With the scent of costliest nard. Ah! happy day they whose hearts can break And peace of pardon win! How else may man make straight his plan And cleanse his soul from Sin? How else but through a broken heart May Lord Christ enter in? And he of the swollen purple throat. And the stark and staring eyes, Waits for the holy hands that took The Thief to Paradise; And a broken and a contrite heart The Lord will not despise. The man in red who reads the Law Gave him three weeks of life, Three little weeks in which to heal His soul of his soul's strife, And cleanse from every blot of blood The hand that held the knife. And with tears of blood he cleansed the hand, The hand that held the steel: For only blood can wipe out blood, And only tears can heal: And the crimson stain that was of Cain Became Christ's snow-white seal. VI. In Reading gaol by Reading town There is a pit of shame, And in it lies a wretched man Eaten by teeth of flame, In burning winding-sheet he lies, And his grave has got no name.And there, till Christ call forth the dead, In silence let him lie: No need to waste the foolish tear, Or heave the windy sigh: The man had killed the thing he loved, And so he had to die. And all men kill the thing they love, By all let this be heard, Some do it with a bitter look, Some with a flattering word, The coward does it with a kiss, The brave man with a sword!
Saturday, December 24, 2011
I Seem To Have Gone Blind
What is all of this?
Well it is my first collection, put together by my own two hands- painted, wallpapered, doodled and poesy-ized. There are only five of them in existence (at least for now!)
Where are they?
The five books are located in Stacked Bookshop, which is located inside the beautiful vintage shop, The Fine Art of Design, in Palm Springs! Here is a great write up about the store. Support used/vintage/small press book shops! Also these books can be shipped to you! Just let me know by leaving a comment with your email and I will send you more information!
If you have any questions about this collection, the bookshop or the vintage store please ask me!
Happy Holidays!
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
You Are Not Having Any Fun At All
Popular Memory
I walked under the autumned populars that my father
planted
On a day in April when I was a child
Running beside a heap of suckers
From which he picked the straightest, most promising.
My father dreamt of forests, he is dead
And there are popular forests in the waste-places
And on the banks of drains.
When I look up
I see my father
Peering through the branched sky.
After May
May came, and every shabby phoenix flapped
A coloured rag in lieu of shining wings;
In school bad manners spat and went unslapped
Schoolmistress Fancy dreamt of other things.
The lilac blossomed for a day or two
Gaily, and then grew weary of her fame.
Plough-horses out on grass could now pursue
The pleasures of the very mute and tame.
A light that might be mystic or a fraud
Played on far hills beyond all common sight,
And some men said that it was Adam's God
As Adam saw before the Apple-bite,
Sweet May is gone, and now must poets croon
The praises of a rather stupid June.
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